So I saw The Artist Formerly Known As Lauryn Hill on the cover of the latest issue of Black liberal magazine Essence the other day, picked it up and got some insight on her reunion with the Fugees, her recent hiatus from recording music, her 4 kids and the reasons why everyone must now address her as "Ms. Hill".
The reason Lauryn Hill had to step away from the spotlight, she told Essence magazine for its new issue, was that it was a "very toxic situation" for her, because she wasn't able to be herself. "I discovered people could only acknowledge red and blue and I was somewhere between. I was purple," she told the magazine. "And when I can't be whole, I have a problem. I was like, 'I've got to get out of here.' "
So she spent two or three years "away from all social interaction," with no music and no television. "It was a very introspective and complicated time because I had to really confront my fears," she said.
During her downtime, Hill also wrote a lot Â music as well as screenplays Â and even dabbled in fashion design, endeavors that helped her become "older, wiser, and clearer." Still, she vetoed plans to do a clothing line, because it bothered her to see her look "exploited, appropriated, copied and reproduced" by others. "Fashion is something I breathe," Hill said. "I wasn't really trying to share my style, I was just trying to be me and exist."
Now that's she back with the Fugees, Hill says her hope is that other artists don't get "trapped in images that don't really reflect who they are."
As far as artists go, I've always been a huge fan of Lauryn Hill. I really have. Her God-given talent iimmeasurablele and besides the superb effort that was "The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill", I still think that she can contribute many more great things to this planet. But that's up to Ms. Hill and it starts with her taking some responsibility for her actions. And nowhere in this article does she do that. In her eyes, her family, friends and men were the problem, and she doesn't take any responsibility for her contributions to the problems that she faces. While she talks about needing to "love herself" more, she still comes off as controlling and she gets angry at any perception of someone disrespecting her.
Sorry, but Lauryn Hill needs to get some Act-Right and quit pointing fingers.
After all, no one forced her to have an affair with fellow band member Wyclef that led to the group's downfall. No one forced her to get with a married man and have kids out of wedlock and she shouldn't have tried to take all the credit for the work performed on "Miseducation", as she did and later got sued for. So granted, while I'm sure that plenty of people, including myself, are happy just to see the Fugees reunited, considering that it's been like 10 years since their last album (the magnificent opus that was "The Score"), I sure hope that Ms. Hill's on-going personal dysfunction doesn't get in the way of the group actually putting out another record or two.